Face your fears

    Don't run from your fear's face them head on.  I learned that the hard way.  I have found myself angry at the world for things that have gone wrong in my life.  If I would have known then what I know now I would have faced it head on and changed my mindset.  Things always happen for a reason and when things go wrong in your life then that is when you need to sit back and reflect, find out the reason it happen.  Where you thinking negatively?   Was there a deeper emotion that played a role?  I know I hold in my emotions, I don't cry in front of anyone, I don't let my anger out when i get mad I just hold it in and that can be disastrous later on.  Recently I came to realize I had been holding anger in for 5 years and finally it all came out.  It was like I was a totally different person.  I have come to an agreement with myself that I can't hold it in any longer.  Once I released that anger it was life changing both emotionally and physically.  I want to tell you though that you don't need to do what I did.  I learned a lesson a huge one.  I went mad on someone and could have seriously hurt them because I blacked out.  I have had years of people hurting me in one way or another and I just held it all in.  Emotional pain took a toll on me and came out in a physical way.  I since then removed the people who caused that emotional pain from my life and I have never felt more alive than I do right now.  If someone in your life is hurting you or making you angry in some way confront them immediately about it.  Do not get snippy, do not show anger, show them the true emotion of hurt!  If you think about it your only angry because it hurt you some way.  So show them that it hurts when they say or do such things.  Be truthful about it, don't hold back.  Once you get it out there then your emotional state will be level and you won't have so many downs.  If I would have confronted these people 5 yrs ago and said my peace then, I wouldn't have flipped a lid now.  I learned from my mistake.  I have said my peace now and pushed them away for good because they brought nothing but hurt and anger into my life and with 2 kids I couldn't have my emotional state so distorted.  If you feel like you can't say it to their face then write them a letter, send them an email or even give them a call.  Tell them the TRUTH.  I promise it will set you free.  Don't be hateful just be grateful that your not allowing them to manipulate your emotions.  If after you tell them how you feel and ask them to stop doing these things, if they don't stop well I'm sorry to say it but it would be better to keep your distance and if at any point they keep doing things that hurt you or make you angry you might have to call them out on it in front of others, because believe it or not others probably feel the same exact way you do but don't have the courage to confront them and when you confront them in front of the others they will feel that courage of theirs rise and stand beside you and speak up as well.  Even if it is family you still can't allow someone to hurt you.  I have pushed family out of my life because they bring pain and anger into my life and that is something I want no part of.  I hope this helps you.  I am wanting everyone to know the destruction holding it all in can cause because it almost killed my marriage, so please let it out before you blow up.  It's easier on you that way.  If you will it, it will come, if you say it, so shall it be.  Love with all your heart, nobody is perfect, be proud, and have faith in the Divine.   Love and light to you during your most trying times.  Blessed be brothers and sisters!